Tuesday, July 25, 2006


Originally uploaded by Tsjeu.
Youth of delight! come hither
And see the opening morn,
Image of Truth new-born.
Doubt is fled, and clouds of reason,
Dark disputes and artful teazing.
Folly is an endless maze;
Tangled roots perplex her ways;
How many have fallen there!
They stumble all night over bones of the dead;
And feel--they know not what but care;
And wish to lead others, when they should be led.

- William Blake

Friday, July 21, 2006

Joys of Youth

Joys of Youth
Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
Oh the simplicity and charm of youth. I can so relate to the feeling of my nephew receiving a toy. That is the essence of a child's heart right there...

Thursday, July 20, 2006

from the passenger seat

from the passenger seat
Originally uploaded by ultraviolett.
Wow! I didn't take this picture, but I sure wish I did. It's pictures like these that make me want to be a photographer. I love how beautiful all the converging lines are on this reflection. It is perfectly balanced, if this isn't art, I don't know what is. It's just brilliant!!!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Tuesday, July 18, 2006


My Father
Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
I found this picture of my dad taken on August 1964. I am not sure where it is was taken. He was 28 years old when this was taken. Twelve years before I was born. He looks young and fit. It's kinda scary how I look so much like him. He had such great hair, how come I don't have any hair. Now that's a tragedy...

Monday, July 17, 2006

Arches of Los Angeles

Arches of Los Angeles
Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
Near Chinatown there is a bridge that crosses the L.A. River this picture was taken on that bridge near Pasadena Street. Who knew concrete rivers were that beautiful. I had to do some work on this picture to get the details out, and I utilized the Unsharp Mask feature to really bring out the shadows and highlights of the concrete bridge. I also added a cooling photo filter to make the water and the sky a little softer and to enhance the blues, and I loved the way it turned out.

Saturday, July 15, 2006


Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
I took this on a small construction site near Highland Park. This is a small overlooked entry into the Los Angeles River. There were people sleeping on the crevices and corners underneath this bridge, they were very cool with me and allowed me to take my time as I took pictures. I had some trouble adjusting to the shadows, by I fidgeted around with the aperture and later enhanced the shadows through photoshop. I love how it is framed with those rusted staples. It is a little oversaturated, only because it enhances the colors and made it a little grainy, which subtly adds to the context of the picture.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Lotus Festival

Echo Park
Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
I went to the Lotus Festival in Echo Park over the weekend, and managed to take this amazing picture of Los Angeles. I ripped out a hole on the cover of the program guide, and used the hole to focus the fountains, the city skyline and the lake, and it came out so well.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Leap of Faith

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Happy 4th of July!

Arlinton West - Santa Monica
Originally uploaded by Ryanicus.
Seeing all the crosses and memorial to all the fallen soldiers in Iraq is a humbling experience ideal in commemorating what the 4th of July stands for. It not only stands for freedom, but it should stand for peace as well.

Monday, July 03, 2006


It is one of the simplest and obvious questions you can ask yourself, and yet it can be one of the most difficult questions to answer. Most people die, unable to answer that basic question truthfully to themselves. I haven't been able to answer that question truthfully to myself. Sometimes you think you've got it all figured out, and life just keeps throwing along the path that creates friction within you. I've been caught in maligned philosophies, flawed spiritual paths, and progressive self-pragmatism. And I see people around me that are have found that internal niche that allows them to live their life, either in ignorant bliss or determined optimism. What is inside the pit of my stomach? Is it God? Or just bad Mexican food? Too often in my life I've found that I've had to compromise certain things about who I am, and what I am about? Perhaps it's the fear of disappointing someone, or perhaps it's just not realizing what I really want and fighting for it wholeheartedly. Sometimes I feel like the fight has been taken away from me. Whether it's because I work in a cube, or because I'm stuck in over an hour's worth of traffic everyday. I live a life with little or no risk. I have been raised and encouraged to live a safe, risk-adverse, disciplined, and secure lifestyle. And I have battled those pillars the past few years and various capacities, and yet I am still here, a knot in the system, blogging in a cafeteria watching lonely old men eat grapefruits. Is that my future? I am a tamed housecat, not the lion that I should be.

What is the value of my life? Is it my mortgage? My 401-K? My toys? My friendships? My belly? My intrinsic desire to procreate, and start a family? The number of songs in my ipod? Sometimes I find myself twisting and turning in bed at night, unable to sleep, unable to process my past, present, and future. I'd like to live in bliss, unshackled by fear and pride. It sounds so simple, take that leap of faith, and jump into the big unknown, but perphaps the sea is too deep and cliff to high, the landing too unpleasant. Fear is like an itch on your back just a bit too far for your fingernails to reach. Will there ever be answers? It seems as if the more answers I receive, the more questions I have.

I want to fight. I want to clench my fists and feel the might of my heart in it's nucleus. I want to fight for ideas, people, and freedom. I want to be truthful in my motives and intent, and not compromise on the little stuff. I want to fight for soul. Rise up with fists clenched and raised in the air. I want to rise in solitude and in community. I want risk! I want to increase my pain tolerance. I want to be fearless.